Unless you're looking at the mobile page, you'll probably notice that I've added the Twitter widget to the gadget bar off to the right. So for those of you that don't want to bother with Twitter but are curious about what I post on there, just move your eyes a couple hundred pixels over and check it out. But if you're reading this and you see any posts about being depressed, I apologize for that, as I'm not in the best mood right now.
In case you wanted to know why I'm suddenly feeling depressed, here's my spiel. So basically Scott and I had planned sometime last week that we'd hang out on Sunday, and he had to bump it to today due to "family plans". Well, as far as I know, he blew me off yet again with the excuse that he hadn't asked his parents yet and they were out so he couldn't ask now (even though his parents wouldn't have given a shit), and most likely just sat around playing video games and ignoring me when I tried to talk to him after he gave me his excuse.
That's not the only thing though...for a while I've just been feeling like my friends are slowly drifting away. Three already over the past little while have just kinda dropped outside of the radar and I never talk to them online and thus never see them in the flesh. Other friends I'm starting to talk to less and less too, and my online life seems to be getting gradually more awesome but also seems to impede any progress made with "real-life" friends. And since some of my closest friends are never able to hang out with me and I don't really feel a strong bond with anyone, it's all starting to pile-up and affect me greatly. Doesn't help that I've been sick the last couple of days, been busy doing "slave labor" as my Mom calls it (my flyer route), and every other day I have to tidy and vacate my own home so some person(s) can march in and judge the way my family lives. Last night was the one time I was actually able to get a good sleep over the past few days, and even that was cut short because of the 9:45-10:45 showing in the morning.
I think I'll be alright come tomorrow morning. I sure hope so...I don't wanna be in one of my "moods" to hang out with Hayden. I'll probably have more positive input for Twitter and the blog almost as soon as I wake up. Or at least more usual input. :P Still kinda psyched to start vlogging, which I think I'll do Wednesday just before I leave for camping Thursday through Monday. No idea what I'll use to put it together...
And that's about that. I feel a bit calmer and happier already now that I've vented a bit, but I still don't want anything more to do with people tonight. The best idea now is to grab a warm diet coke, a book, my wolf, and my iPod for a good couple hours of reading before bed. Getting immersed in a new world really helps to take away the pain and stress from this world. So unless you really wanna text me because you have something extremely important or just want to be a prick and spam me with one-word texts to which I will reply with rather inappropriate language, I'll be ignoring the internet until morning.
Until then...g'night! :3
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